Hero.

Okay, so my sheer ability to procrastinate is evident and the lack of "im going to do this" in my life is apparent. BUT- I am a wife and a mother. Aside from being a nurse (full time), a grocery shopper, a cleaner, a maid, a chef, a laundry mat owner, and a pet groomer. So a 'blogger' has slipped slightly to the bottom of my 'to do' list. Somewhere in between find time for yourself and Hayden's nap time. Needless to say, someway, somehow- I have discovered it. Yet again. I will make no promises to keep it up (if anyone even cares to read) and I will not make it a goal to do it daily, weekly, or even monthly. Ill just do it when I find time. Free time. Ohhhh the joys.


I say that with sarcasm, but literally- oh the joys. I had no idea the happiness, hardships, LOVE, gratefulness, strength, lack of sleep, but JOY our sweet baby boy would bring to us.

I now know what it means to 'go with little sleep,' or even how appreciative I am when that sweet 19 lb baby allows me to 'sleep in,' and by 'sleep in', I mean 8:00 a.m.
But the way my entire heart and soul  leaps out of my chest when I drag myself, eyes nearly matted shut, down the hall into his quiet and peaceful bedroom and see his big beautiful hazel eyes light up from the huge grin he is now bearing as I peek over his crib- erases any hardship, lack of sleep, or rough day I just THOUGHT I was going to have. In that instant I feel consumed, content, care free, loved, & needed. I feel blessed. I instantly become consumed by how good God has been and is to Roy and me. I nearly find myself in tears (i am an emotional baby) every time I walk into his room and lift him out of his crib as his snuggles next to my neck. I am suddenly at 7 in the morning after 6-7 hours of interrupted sleep, over taken by energy that comes from this sweet, small, baby boy who has no idea what he is even doing to my heart and soul.

He brings happiness in any bad situation. He lights up the room with his smile, & when I see my handsome and amazing husband scoop him up in his arms after a long, greasy, hard day at work and kiss him on his fat, chubby, baby cheeks- I cannot do anything but sit, stare, and smile. Its amazing what a child can bring to life. Children are truly a blessing from above. He has transformed a marriage that I didnt even know needed any work at all. He has strengthened me. He has strengthened his Dad.

He (at the ripe old age of 5 1/2 months) has saved so many of us from heartache, by creating love. Love blocks out all evil. Erases wrong doing. He is already my hero.

My child teaches me things that without him, I would have otherwise, never known.

This morning I took time for myself to spend time alone with God.
I striped the sheets off the bed-toted them to the laundry room and found myself emotional. I went back to the bedroom pulled out my study bible, my mom bible, & two devotional books-sprawled myself across the bare mattress and sank into time with God that i so much needed. By the time it was over- I had read Proverbs 31 & 1 Corinthians 13. I wont go into detail what it did to me or for me. But I needed it. Badly.

Ill close by leaving you with my sweet babys 'about me' & some fun pictures of a pretty awesome kid. He doesnt even know it yet. But he.is.awesome.

Hayden

Weight:- We got to the doc on 8/27 but according to our scales he is a whopping 19.5 lbs (give or take)

Height: if I had to guess- a good 26/27 inches long

Favorite TV show: Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. 

Favorite food: Bananas for breakfast and Sweet Potatoes and Carrots.

Favorite past time: Playing in his jumparoo

Favorite bedtime routine: Bath, Bottle, Bedtime book. 

Favorite time with Mommy: tummy time and nap time. 

Favorite time with Daddy: loves being outside with Dad. (esp riding the lawnmower)

Hayden is happy, laughing constantly, always smiling.
He loves his warm bottle @ night and still being swaddled.